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Whats new in LaLa Land?
in one of my dark moods... nothing i cant get out off... but still i fell like time is gnawing away at my bones ... feel old and spent... makes sense to any one here.... are any of you feeling a trend of apathy latly?
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"They say that dreams are real only as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same thing about life?" -
Yees.
But Im on the way for work, have just been diving (in water at 0.8 degress celsius) and havent slept well at all, lately.
Cold in the bones, tired in the heart.
But. heh. I have a young girlfriend (in the kitchen now, btw - and it smells good!).
That does help a weary hand & heart.
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I'm cursed.Titanium is the new bling!
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what makes you say that..... welll i say that too but that is beyond the point
"They say that dreams are real only as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same thing about life?"Comment
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I keep thinking that I make the right decisions but I end up worse than where I started, hence I'm cursed!Titanium is the new bling!
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-16c over here, do I need to say anything more?
If there's artificial intelligence, there's bound to be some artificial stupidity.
Jeremy Clarkson "806 brake horsepower..and that on that limp wrist faerie liquid the Americans call petrol, if you run it on the more explosive jungle juice we have in Europe you'd be getting 850 brake horsepower..."Comment
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Come try a real winter here thenOriginally posted by Technoid
-16c over here, do I need to say anything more?
We have enough youth - What we need is a fountain of smart!
i7-920, 6GB DDR3-1600, HD4870X2, Dell 27" LCDComment
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how about you guys to go Perth and get oven-backed.Comment
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Wow, don't know why (and who cares) but I feel great today!
Titanium is the new bling!
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thats good zokes
me... i dont know what to feel any more..... i am turning all my customers down... just dont want to do any more crapy mediocer work for peole who dont know a cut from a fade..... stiking to my day job... not to intresting but it pays.... all my freinds are somewhere or the other and too busy... and my wife is off at her parents for a while..... so its just me.. the internet and SAT TV and DVDs...... wish i to god i had the EE of ROTK... that way i'd put all three EE versions and watch them back to back....
i know it sounds pethetic.... may be it is .... but i am not depresed and that is strange and wierd for me.... to be on the border.... contemplating the silence befor the storm.....
feel like writing a new film... actualy have 4 ideas runing simultaniously in my head.... but i will wait untill one of those ideas ferments.... then i will start writing... it will take time but i dont care any more.... i am hapy and sad.... for both i do not have a reason.... i have been bumping into people that i havent seen in a long time and finding things that i thought where lost.... and fragments of memories keep coming back every now and then of days long past... god i feel like a grinsh... what have i been doing all this time...... i wish the imigration visa would come sooner... i need a drastic change in my life...
OH and as for change.... i am the only person who is not a student who got excepted to this 6 day workshop organised by the british concil here in beirut... "the sacred and profane in cinema" wonderfull topic i am going to enjoy this for sure... they made an exception in my case on acount of my portfolio and recomendations from the chairwoman of the Com Arts Dep. at the uni where i studied and now work...... which brings me to remeber the revolution we started 4 years ago.... we won ... but i cant help remeber how we where betrayed left and right.... in the end there where only three of us left.. the spearhead, (he guy we got voted in to the student council to fight our fight) and the two people all the students look up to on acount of thier work, experience and high level of creativeity (also the two people who helped any one who thought them out) the buterfly (my best she freind) and the dragon (me)...... but now i look and try and see what we actualy wone... and for whom? fine we got a VP ousted... we got the previouse chairman demoted.... the dean would have been ousted but she hit retierment age.... and two profesores where warned.... we started this revolution so that the younger ones would benifit... but now i look and all i see is people who are not intrested in attining a real edducation.... creatures who have no cultural bacground, who know litle of history, culture, sociology, phycology or even who to oporate a ****ing camera for that that mater....
my freinds.... we are entering the age of ultra-superficiality...... at least here in lebanon..... the new breed of students coming in are way way way way below their predesesors...... and to be honest the teachers arnt that mutch better.... meny teachers are just pssing some students so that they wont have to deal with them again.... students who do no projects, no research, and somtimes no tests.... what the hell is going on.... what the **** did we fight for.... it seems that all we wone was respect in public view but curses behind closed doors...... i feel like my deegree is worth less then toilet paper and quite honestly last time i ran out of toilet paper i did think of wiping my ars with it....
so what is your problem spiral? you might ask.... i have no chalanges left....
at work they know of my potencial ... well they only know of 60% of it but only use 5%..... there is so mutch more i could do but all they are intrested in here is too look good and preserve an outwardly good image even if on the inside all is rotten......
no my freinds.... the imigration visa cant come too soon... it is way over due.. by years... and i feel old and usless.... i am only 26years old abd have mutch to look forward to.... but then i look and see that a freind of mine is already directing an indi in canada with robin williams staring in it..... i am over joyed for the guy and he deserves fully this chance... but i cant help but envy him..... and i feel guilty for thinking like that and at the same time cant help thinking why in gods name am i soo unlucky.... well maybe i am exagerating ... i do have a wonderfull wife.... but you get what i meen... yet i am not realy depresed.. at least not in the way i used to be...... oh will someone just club me over the head please... the dragon wants to sleep....."They say that dreams are real only as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same thing about life?"Comment
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Sounds like you haven't had fun in ages. Grab some of your best friends and go out and go crazy, you'll see, you'll feel much better. Sometimes all you need is to forget about everything else and just have some good ol fun. Works for me at least.Titanium is the new bling!
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I'm cursed I keep buying lemons.
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You are cursed. If I need to order anything online, I should have you order it first from the same store, then I know I won't get the lemon.
"I dream of a better world where chickens can cross the road without having their motives questioned."Comment
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I'll buy it for you from the same place and you'll get a lemon trust me.Comment
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