am i going mad

[Ribbit]

Yes, get some exercise, it really will help. It doesn't have to be hard or punishing, just do it regularly and keep at it. I always feel much better after a swim, even if I was feeling good before.

[SpiralDragon]

the thing is i have been ignoring this for some time know.... try a few years... it comes and it goes.. .but every time it comes it is stronger and the time between just keeps getting shorter.....

i do need the excersise but its not mutch of an option here.... too many cars and small side walks... cant go to the mountains (where i enjoy to be) beacuse i dont have transportation.... unfortunatly its not like i can pick up and go for a walk here... simply beacuse the way people drive here .... never mind that...

swiming is an option i think i will take that up... but then again lebanon is becomeing a resort for the ritch only....

thinking of saving some money and then take a vacation somewhere in europ with my wife.... some where quite....

[The Rock]

SpiralDragon:

I go through the same thing, but I know what causes mine. There is usually something (one VERY big thing) that causes things like this. Its usually some unresolved emotional stuff (i.e. work-related stress, lonliness, marital/love problems, etc). Maybe not working in your chosen field is getting you down? Bad economy maybe? The bad economy one is a common one for family people since they're worried about the lives and future of their family. Funny thing is when you get used to feeling this way for a period of years, you become accustomed to it, like a really bad habit. And it becomes hard to get out from under that black cloud. Of course, I'm just rambling and speculating to get your mental wheels turning. It could also be a chemical imbalance of some kind that can be corrected with medication. Your doctor will hopefully answer that one. Good luck! Here's hoping you don't become a bitter cynical a$$hole like me.

Bart

[Agent31]

something good came out of the Pit!

[The PIT]

Good stuff always comes out of The PIT.

[The PIT]

Seriously if it is getting worse it's worth seeing a doctor. Hypnotherapy works quite well in some cases and is a lot better than pill taking which can become additive as well. It could also be something in your diet that maybe causing this.

[Drizzt]

Originally posted by SpiralDragon
yes .. i am maried... and no we dont have problems except for a short argument every once in a while

Ok, but it's the only advise I can give you, and it's the same thing I do with the girl I have near when it happens that I'm depressed.

WARN HER

I always use something like:
"Baby, I feel a bit blu and dpressed and probably I'm going to feel/act/react strange in the next days. Please, don't take me too seriously until I have came back to normality, thanks."

Usually, if she is not too stupid, it works and save from a lot of problems...
And I use it even when things are going on between us from a lot and she knows me very well. After all, women are more emotional than us!

[SpiralDragon]

i am thinking its a combination of all the above.... especialy since i am not working in my feild .... and i know that i am darn good in my field... better than most of the pros here..... but i think my greatest concern is i know that what i have is not enugh.... i dont think i would survive for a minut in canada... thats where we will be imigrating soon™ ...... also waiting for the embasy to answer is a drag..... but i do feel humiliated that after having edured hell and came out ok i am the best in town when it comes to editing and sound .... yet no one wants me... i dont even put up the snobish and arogant atitude that the others do (ie those who hardly know what they are doing) i belive i am very rational and humble in my dealing with people and i dont claim superiority or act it out even when it is obvious to an ass that i am better.... yet they get the jobs beacuse their parents know someone and i dont ... my father left when just when i finished shcool... it took me 6yrs to get my self through uni and only managed to acumilate a dept of $2,500 out of a total tuition (over the years) of $40,000..... the government refused to recognise my status as a student becuse i did not do the government exams (long story tied to my dyslexic condition) which caused me not to be recognised by the university as a BA candidate so i got my degree by corespondance with a uni in NY........ by my second semester at uni it was obvious that to every one that i was the only person on campus who knew anything about sound.... and then they descoverd my editing skills.... and finaly they got to see my creative side... it became very obvious to most ppl that i was better in knowldge and skill then most of out teachers.... (not becasue i am that good but beacuse they are fruds) we called for change and neerly got crushed by the administration and then we got to the board and they where afraid.. but still the battle goes on.. (without me know) i have a wonderfull wife but we both still dont have enugh money to move in togeather... that too is a major problem.. and my boss is an old lady whom i love but gets on my nervs 75% of the time... but it is the only stable good paying job i can get....... and i dont know why... with all my skills and talent i still cant get the right job......

[ZokesPro]

Originally posted by SpiralDragon
.... and i know that i am darn good in my field... better than most of the pros here..... but i think my greatest concern is i know that what i have is not enugh.... i dont think i would survive for a minut in canada...

That's your depression talking, trust me, it'll be fine.

[Tempest]

SpiralDragon, stop fearing that you are not the best! Of course you're not, because to be the best you need experience. Experience comes with practice and feedback, which you currently don't get enough of. But what matters is that you know what you love, you know that you are better at it than most, and you want to get even better. While being humble is good, there comes moments when you have to say that you think you are good to get the respect you deserve. You may feel powerless to change the way things are, but every great talent is just not "found", you have to actively advertise yourself as well.

And if somebody against all odds comes to you and asks if you know a good editor, you tell them "I consider myself pretty good". If they let out that little amused laugh or say "yeah, but besides you" then you need to ask them a reason why you won't do. If it is a good reason, then you should go do something to improve yourself in that field. Next time they'll have one reason less. If, on the other hand, they give you a pathetic reason then they may have gotten a bad first impression about you, or maybe they've already in their mind decided who they want. In this situation it is still possible to convince them otherwise. If they simply don't respect you, find someone who does.

You know what you want and you know it isn't what you're currently up to, so don't give up until you get it.